How my Brain became Overloaded into Minimal Development

Deep Blue Sea nears completion: “The chemical cocktail would render the fire inert, yet destabilization by breaking walls would easily incinerate sharks.”

Here liquid fire is formed, a central defining feature of my universes which matches things like serving a “wife” role for leading artist female friends. My psyche is unusual which requires being treated as such - otherwise how can you expect anything special from me? But that specialness has inherent value from the start, and /co/ artists like gigidigi and Rebecca Sugar gained weird identities from being linked to my brain in the 00s. It was an infamous event on 4chan when gigidigi transformed from a wacky video game artist to her cosmic style:

One of the people who helped Spumdonor try to kick me out of the animation community is an old-time Homestuck fan, meaning the original forum posters who enjoyed the math, point and click adventure, etc jokes. Homestuck increasingly aligned with my own teenage brand, Bec Noir a manifestation of my rage to see people attack my female friendships like Rya in Warcraft 3 for my cultural efforts… and even my own internal muse. Such fans as him were responsible for the bizarre, disturbed online environment as my effort to personalize life personalized Homestuck away from a generic online video game adventure towards the grips of my brand. Always with initial roots of people being excited about me spreading my brand for years. And so ultimately - as a pitiful and low male mentality, the opposite of cosmic consciousness or just generic Christian thinking - he sought revenge for losing his Cool Gamer Bros w/Bonus Girls comic I made fun of, at least in my highly-connected mind. The conviction that my life was coming to an end was intense from some quarters, but instead people just saw what my brand fucking is. It wouldn’t be a surprise if he was one of the HSG posters who expressed nasty sentiment in 2013, now the thread is a shrine for my psyche:

Making an episode about feminism synchronizes with discussion of tradwife fetishism by them, ipgd a moth-like girl, she prizes a process of metamorphosis, which her submissive behavior showed what end goal she aimed for, like that fetish. The thinking of posters is nurtured by her brain through her influence, showing such submissive behavior. With fans a medium of expression. Her actual complaint was about being disempowered, as her individual flourishing “builds through the flesh of the faithful”, objectionable to Protestants as she is literally becoming a goddess, as will be reflected in Kaiju form in my sequel to Deep Blue Sea. Joining the Homestuck team was great for our future, but put her actual development on pause, becoming a trans team member who occasionally made funny jokes, and before that process was complete lashing out at me bewilderingly as trans would do to their loved ones, and a great MRA joke is that all feminists are trans

These monsters being drawn and posted are 1 source of the spread of my brand as meta-organisms of memes is literally the easiest part of Underbeasts being real, thus their robotic equivalents too. As a rational artist I used the nature of my creations to set up my projects, even more basic projects than Mechanica. My ‘critics’ screamed incessantly about it to protest building throughout the flesh of the faithful.

It becomes very difficult to discuss things with others when they reject basic concepts like “levels” that make communication possible. I said amongst leftist Christians that “on one level, we all know God is real” and they flipped the fuck out, that’s why they reject the concept of levels from:

1. Me discussing cartoons because they’re an interest, I know people who draw them, and I would like to draw cartoons with them. The kid level in adult life.

2. Me drawing cartoons because they eventually create eternal Cosmic wonders and are part of my path of inventing Catholic theology for the arts and receiving eternal glory as reward. The grand level.

“one of the star seatrucks slammed aside two that were only partially drivable, unfolding its mechanical repair arms.” This further update to Deep Blue Sea clarifies that Star vehicles are on a whole other level from others in the fleet, there isn’t another Destroyer like Maverick’s. My critical process of producing my stories was shared with others, a cosmic contribution to art communities bringing them up the staircase of levels. Which shitty or mediocre males interfered with by spazzing out with bizarre responses to impede the flow of my contribution like Protestant kids, then they could claim I wasn’t contributing anything to laugh and goon and hope I receive a brutal cancellation as a problematic male.

Preferring queerness that makes communication an ambiguous mush where manipulators can flourish.

This shows why being friends with ipgd was such that I could not forget it for the next 10 years, as criticizing Muslims for rejecting the feedback of girls that empowers my brand development leads to her simultaneously repeating my word choice. Choosing terms like “nightmare” involves the presence of girls in my brain, as my words are very meaningful and so without them I stunned people essentially at random with innocuous remarks, like the Deadlights of Pennywise. Her RT is a purely meta post, as a sort of psychic secretary preventing such things for me. And so seeing girls as magical creatures, etc was never theoretical for me.

I believe that in the end times bad people will accept they are bad and so I was not troubled by nonbelievers embracing evil “ironically” or not, I just sought to manage them with my influence. This service to God gets the public to gradually accept the concept of levels, and so helps my art.

And so who can blame you if you hate levels-less femininity? Statements by ipgd over the years included - as one level - her appeasing unironic feminists that I could “not get any dumber,” meaning feminine assistance on Earth for my brain was minimal. What a statement to just seep into your brain to brew horrible darkness of the soul, with no further statement on the subject (they pretended they could not remember past interactions to resist “you will be held accountable for every careless word” by Jesus, as well as the real meaning of things like ratio events.)

This reflects me mentioning that Adam Warren has my style of masculinity previously. It was infamous to gamers of 2001 when MGS2 turned out to star Raiden instead of Snake after the beginning. I was never bothered by it. This would show what kind of male I am to MGS superfan ipgd. But pleasant friendly interactions were disturbed and broken by politics and careerism. Just as I became a fan of Lil Wayne late, after my dad failed to introduce my brother’s Lil Wayne taste, I have no idea how my own brother enjoys music aside from seeing some CDs. My dad sought to tear away my humanity so I would be a career drone he was constantly laughing at before he became enraged. Just so, careerists, feminists, and other types tore apart the development of my best friendship for their self-interest on /ic/ and elsewhere, leading to being increasingly haunted by the culture for the many sins that cry out to heaven for vengeance they committed to do so.

Instead of retroactively re-enjoying MGS together - itself a kingly experience for the time, she literally shares her last name with a character relevant to this subject - I was expected to embrace trans and feminism even if only to sabotage them, myself having made ipgd completely comfortable with her femininity just months before. It was like expecting me to accept our friendship being sodomized. This gave inspiration to my fanfics that freaked Homestuck fans the fuck out, reflecting the specter of demands for spiritual violation. Cartoon community women proceeded to observe me as having ‘gay psychology’ which in my mind was a multiversal pathway to acknowledging my childhood acceptance of Raiden like a normal person, so that my special impulses as a MGS fan are discovered normally to show the bedrock of our best friendship, without financially-motivated desolation of the development of my life for the foreseeable future.

Cancel culture ratios were embraced by Tumblr women as they produced ‘feminine’ softboys with the psychological effects, but the mental illness they created involved submerged masculine psychology seeking to lash out in a socially-acceptable manner. And so they/them softboy Tumblr artists fought hard for legal rights of trans to get vengeance on their female friends for deforming their minds. That made them feel good, and it was blatant to me they expressed crude, malicious, basic male psychology - not cute or “feminine” at all.

This shows my inspiration: I spited Batman hate by obsessively talking about kicking asses, as beating up criminals on the street isn’t “crude and basic,” as the false progress of woke leads people to think. Those I beat up on digital streets will be assisted by me if they learn to change their ways through methods like showing I have the respect of many women, a pattern of my character that is basis for these posts.

Meanwhile girls are enamored with the first signs of my brand as the boiling lava, etc, reflects the submerged Rare. My Catholic character first, learns to be good, then, learns to be bad, to embrace natural evil, “bad boy” appeal, seeking to break moral norms, and such. I learned to assist the marriages of others passionately by rejecting casual sex, yet observing I did not like to be limited to 1 person for expressing my passion. And so I simply followed moral rules until the wonders of the Divine revealed licit expression of my individual full nature. Forming such things as dramatic volcanoes for my stories, and the ability to explode in real life, to break what I previously considered unthinkable as some immigrant-run hotel was intolerable to my sense of America.

A sighting of the upside-down feather headdress, a calling card of Smiledog, like the Joker in real life.

This would make the show more aligned with my brand, that’s what the world wasn’t ready for. The most outrageous failing of women I connected with is that my attitude towards Gainax-Trigger aligning with my brand, etc., *is* humble. I write about it occasionally on my Substack, and that’s how I like my current life to be, which deflates corporate greed and brand enforcement. I earned it by jumping on board with John K’s online school after his show and shows he inspired inspired Gainax-Trigger in the first place, became his #1 student and suffered the consequences, all 100% rational but too much for manchildren. I also continue to suffer the responsibility like Trigger failing to connect with Steven Universe and other half-baked American shows, like Spider-Man.

This reflects a Nepeta worship thread on /co/ then, that hit bump limit due to a lot of fulfillment for various Nepeta type girls. With her fanbase’s 4chan presence some would see it.

Clearly various artists on the show like to interact with me and it draws my attention with the Katie Rice-type stylings. It would be inconvenient for people who reject the objectivity of aesthetics to have learned I engage with cartoons, etc, in extremely tangential ways before this for the health of my brain forming Deep Blue Sea, etc, regardless that I don’t have the same feelings as I had in the johnkstuff era.

To engage with the past like I do would create horrible shame for feminists, etc, if they did it quickly. Meaning, they need to stop being feminists to do so. The horrible abuse Josh Lesnick, Shmorky, Jacob Lenstar, and others received will create very sad stories, and my opponents simply enjoyed the cheap pleasure of seeing cartoony artist young males go trans or gay.

Meanwhile, friendly girl artists enable the formation of a Rare transformation, to burn my whole mind with a completely different psychology and completely different voice and possibly even physical enhancement. There are tiers, levels, factions, that will persist to Heaven in some way. “All women are wonderful” continues to die, and I get my girl bros which is that all I wanted before I met the World to earn extremely painful glory.

This latest-liked song is about a Caliborn-type state of skeletal masculinity. It required an enormous amount of female attention to escape a normal amount of female attention (normal even for me) being a little too late. And so this taught them about helping other males, Noblesse Oblige in action despite my finances.