The Fear of Honest Life; Emotion vs The Animation Industry
Explaining both how its major projects were crippled by its people's aversion to any kind of strong emotion, and how emotions about me threatened it
Oil-Worlds continues with Chapter 15: The Rainbow Bridge: โTheir wings flailed and screeched, as an entire Valhalla of dead Norse souls in Sheol suffered the asynchronous cracking impact of the Stormhammer, as that dire red dog tore through the sky of pagan realms.โ
When Andrew Hussie had ipgd make a painting of symbolic characters for the abstract nature of our relationship, Davepeta and Arquius, hugging, that served the purpose of seeking to prove his readers felt no real emotion about it while I was in isolation. The purpose of this goes back to 2010, as I was starting to tell ipgd and others about my home life, which involved things like arguing over my sister. Later, I made a deviantART group about โkawaiinessโ and couldn't summon the will to reject random unironic young girl submissions which contextualized my claim of โtrying to be manlyโ, as I was essentially inventing a type of man to be and otherwise sunk into being crippled by my neglectful and abusive childhood, which includes the cartoons and the schooling system.
I envision this song as relating to both God and The Birdman. As a creative superpatriarch, The Birdman will receive massive amounts of honor in eternity, and his regulation of the creative mediums gives a gentle conversation about overturning Protestantism for his sake and God's.
And so she expressed a variety of emotions about this, being uncomfortable and sad and more complex ones. There was screeching cacophony at the same time, even though I had moved on from the animation community to trying to start a life as an independent artist with no direct connection, their social Matrix recognized ipgdโs emotions were beginning the process of doing massive damage to their lives and careers.
Emotional Defeat
For since I was 15 years old (ipgd's birthday digits) the animation industry had been creating an exceptionally lousy life, which goes back to before that. It goes to executives repelling Ren and Stimpy despite that it built the Nickelodeon studio. (Which contextualizes me being a meritorious billionaire, Ren and Stimpy did make billions of dollars and also inspire other successful productions like SpongeBob that made lots of people rich and famous. It wasn't enough then, and my teenage efforts that led to Steven Universe, Homestuck fan careers, and other things wasn't enough either)
It goes back to decades after the golden age when people became angry and frustrated about classic cartoon satire like big dumb oafs and fake rich people. They funneled that sort of energy and comedy into politics to soothe their egos and gain worldly power instead of merely entertain kids and others.
And so quickly starting when I was 15 I started provoking online โmental health episodesโ in animation professionals as they saw from their emotions that I resonated with the lost legacy of quality cartooning, my soul was nourished by Daffy Duck and that was clearly evident and led to developing as a Birdman by connecting with artists like Coelasquid, Rebecca Sugar, Dana Terrace, VivziePop for mutual development of artwork. 5 years later, they started telling me my presence โwasn't even rage-inducingโ as rather than heed the warning my presence presented that Society had chosen a very wrong course regarding cartoons they funneled those emotions first into rage, (involving getting angry about female artists feeling sad about me) and then into self-sedation, involving things like the Homestuck character Jake English explaining that I led to women getting lost in my story crap so they needed to be โrescued.โ
Rebecca Sugar went from a strong visionary that inspired thousands to follow in her wake very quickly into a beanmouth leader dissolving amongst artistic weakness. Taking a look at her earlier, higher quality work points towards problematic expression of her connecting with me.
Like for instance her Ed, Edd n Eddy smut. When I went to the animation community I was very troubled by the relationship dynamic between the title trio and the rest of the kids. My life since illustrates the nature of this emotion, as the industry wants to say - but can't - that I'm scamming people about being connected to projects like Steven Universe. That is the form of life they want for someone like me, and I attribute my identity to being largely driven by Italian lineage. It's not so much a problem with the show itself, but rather that Society had a much easier time accepting EE&E because it let them look down on Italians rather than see them like me, a mobster who goes around immune to the law, including informal law. They wanted to take advantage of my Italian Renaissance, but can't swallow that unlike John, their evil never allowed for me to do anything but suffer. It tries to say โlook, look, there were opportunities!โ Haha, no, people completely misinterpreted everything I told them, your Matrix made them completely immune to me as anything but a pathetic sadsack which goes back to my childhood. But the Multiverse, changing the Black Parameters of that time, can soothe your lying tongue when the world blows up, Society.
And so her smut was an expression of desire to resolve my cultural problem, just like my Substack articles and webcomics friend-flirt with Batty unconsciously. I saw it when she first posted it on 4chan, and it settled into my emotions strangely. Rather than purely onanistic, it connected with me, which points towards why Danny Antonucci didn't care about it. Eventually, I supported Ed, Edd n Eddy without reservations, a process industry people did not want to wait to complete despite accepting many other kinds of smut later. It was a too nasty wait, just like waiting for ipgd to move from posting snot bubbles to codeveloping Mechanica and directing paranormal activity.
Honest aims can be expressed in flawed ways, Rebecca Sugar expressed the desire to focus on relationships and most of her Tumblr fans only wanted sex. Her smut accomplished stabilizing my alienation amongst other mechanisms, a prelude to my drawings of Ring monsters to inspire her creativity for Steven Universe. But other people in our communities didn't want that to happen. Steven Universe fell apart without my Rings driving her Gem stories.
Things like tarot reading are mechanisms for filling the figural space of a Birdman type, hence being condemned as a charlatan, but also Facilier responding by condemning disrespect, as his wrongful ways symbolize very meaningful things to be found as replacement darkness. And so the film came at exactly the correct time to be a very meaningful part of my Revolution. I sedatedly critiqued it as bland, prompting a typical โoh youโ response from animation people going into the disaster they were creating with smugness
Rebecca Sugar felt big emotion, about something that savagely penetrated Protestant America, the subliminated extreme deprivation of my life for wanting to expose the concept of a Super Saint, in the Birdman. Which can also be seen in less extreme form in the life of Max Gilardi, a fantastic animator in the field, but they have their arbitrary disqualifications while making something as actually contemptible of a race as Primos. They screeched on the merry-go-round in 2010, not wanting my nasty connection with ipgd, Rebecca Sugar, or anyone else be exposed, while wide swathes of artwork decayed as they tried to exploit their feminine creativity without me.
Like Dana uncovering the transcendent, cosmic meaning of Underdog, Steven Universe developed Daffy Duck in his abstract meaning, actualizing his meaning in reference to British slang for girls by having a single main male character who is a warrior-patriarch conquering an empire of female characters. The Gems manifest many abstractions of contemporary social and cultural life focused on women, the two creators uncover the appeal and meaning of classic cartoons for many women, but with my cultural leadership rejected the initial meaningful concepts disintegrated. My connection to Steven Universe arose hateful emotion about me dispelling feminism and some other topics like a random fat adolescent (because Grandma made a mockery by forcing eating disorders on me and my mom so we wouldn't do things like eat big purely to prepare for causing a ruckus in society) being a male role model. My connection to The Owl House arose strong emotion about upholding the value of suffering, and about evil as a shadow of God's light, against squeaky-clean Protestantism, and encouraging the development of personal power, which can seem much like magic, against disempowered herd life. Those strong emotions prevented, people felt an excitement for the series that this integrated into nothingness, a void to be explored on my Substack.
My accosters decried me as โinsufferableโ, but quality art like Citizen Soldier laments suffering caused by experiencing The Underrealm, gradually expanding in meaning and joy for humans. Revolting against more textured, negative human experience, in part
Conclusion
My grandmother undergoing extreme humiliation rituals to create an extremely deprived and contrived life for my family goes to show the true nature and legacy of Protestantism. I saw the Babylon Bee idiots complain about Britney Spearsโ mental illness they created with their superficial approach to life where anything real like I discuss on my Substack is ordered not to be noticed. I look forward to the Multiverse where Elon Musk will have better things to love. In the meantime, I will continue to expose emotion as an essential resource for artists and their communities which have a very strong life to them Protestantism cannot acknowledge with their barebones faith about staring at God so he gives you joy.
Animation people want to have success, want to have big shows, with no strong emotion, never โmaking a sceneโ, perpetually empty of anything that could upset anyone. And so they served as tools for arresting development of any emotions about myself, so that I could be exploited while building no competitor to their industry, Protestantism (through Cosmic theology and advancing the things it hates), and other things.
And so to accomplish this their lives have been a merry-go-round of making sure nobody had the experience ipgd had back around 2010, and the horses they rode while doing that abstract work will get increasingly hideous.