The importance of artistic experience and emotion interlude - refuting The Spumdonor Subversion
I continue to grill how Spumdonors chose Protestant monoculture over my personalization of art fields like in the work of friendly artists, and also expose the abuse by industry people further
Eternal Prelude continues: Tom: Good Lord in heaven above, is there a nasty slime on the Hauntlyre glass. Who the fuck has been fucking with the webcomic?
Undead Lullaby has been replaced by Libera Me From Hell on the After Update page.
This is how I would glimpse ipgd as extremely intelligent but not so aware of how. It just keeps going. I don't think she likes me being upset. Must be why I was obstructed from people getting to know me in real life so my full suite of emotions could be seen
Previous. Ever since about 2007 people have tried to generate a βreasonableβ dialogue with me, but it was detached from reality. Zoomers complained about me talking about βMr. Zero Dollarsβ as if while I was an outsider from art communities I was just having some kind of unspecified private fantasy. I was having spiritual visions about things like what empowered artwork in the future will be like - artwork which I'm specifically creating, right now, with my work, contrary to the Protestant attitude that heaven is completely separate from our current lives.
This song relates to those who feel my encroaching presence living lives defined by things like Gravity Falls should βdrop deadβ in that former life and make way for my paranormal brand advancing things like the true Black Culture. It more generally relates to what I did back when Alex Hirsch was getting established with the blessing of the Spumdonors, which was drop dead and live on the secret bright side of the exploitative project Homestuck. getting ready to make Hauntlyre and only seen by certain /co/ girls, of which Batty and VivziePop fueled their heavenly brands with this
Furthermore, Mr. Zero Dollars is a persona of myself who died and is now enjoying heaven while previously he did not enjoy the slightest return on my/his life efforts whatsoever. They skip past the morbid horror of how I actually lived in isolation, and so created mental issues for their communities as a result.
They approach discussion while completely disregarding certain parts of life because it is not acceptable to the mainstream. βI got to feed my kids at my nice jobβ says Spumdonor. That's nice, but Bob Camp and company traumatized me as a child by venting their personal issues about John and other things through their Games episodes of the show. I'm spending a couple decades attacking this venting, this therapy, because Protestant Society does not want to accept the value of negative emotions.
Bob Camp completely stalled out as a mere draftsman, unable to do anything creative and fresh. Instead of doing all of that whining he could have used those emotions as fuel. But then Protestant society would have been in the awkward situation that it is now in because of Hazbin Hotel. Because ren and stimpy was more than a funny cartoon, it was a revolution against their world. If they put all of those negative emotions against John, the Games crew would onanistically waste the fire that Protestant Society deserves.
When I went into the animation community, I interrupted the flow of therapy about John K as it harmed me starting when I was 4 years old. Then all of their hostility for John transfer to me, just as it always had. Like Calypso, I granted their Twisted wish to use the cartoons I watched as a kid to attack John, the same cartoons that became an intricate part of my psychology. Proving that attacking John and attacking a true fan of him are one and the same.
Then a few years later the horror came as they had used a random John K fan as a beating dummy for years. When they tore down me building a life with ipgd - not caring about what they had done at all yet - they didn't want to see their guilt and shame exposed, those spiritual emotions disconnected from their personal experience that should motivate them to go to confession. But it didn't work: the shame was written throughout Homestuck and I could have easily exposed it since 2012. I chose not to, which is another twist on this story showing that I was willing to forgive, but they were not willing to accept what they had done, which was recorded in things like Dirk and Jake's objectively incredibly uncomfortable relationship. Now with Hazbin Hotel it's back again, and this time I'm telling the stories every step of the way, who cares if it sends them to hell - that's on brand! And they cared so much about protecting the brands that were around when I was a teenager, like Daffy Duck, one declaring to me βnow I hate Daffy Duckβ to torment me for trying to unveil that the character actually has significance for black people, back when white people and black people were still cool with each other mostly. Well, Hazbin Hotel is a new brand, and any suffering they experience contributes to its success.
This song reflects my teenage effort to overhaul the societal system around Public School to have a proper process for bad candidates in fields. Instead of flunkees being Protestant props for parents to point at and say βsee, if you don't get good grades you'll be like himβ, they are actual parts of society who are cared for and guided in their lives, just as Michelle and others guided me in my completely ruined life starting in 2012. Again βHuskβ relates to having an insubstantial personal soul. It also has the energy of how I would dismiss weak individuals - no it was not supposed to be comforting, but then I'm not a girl. I stimulated girls by discussing Jacob Lenstar and others as people obstructed me from showing that I have more behaviors in this area than dismissing people.
Conclusion
Part of the hostility for Protestant Society against me is that indeed these improvements I was bringing were βdirty.β Grandma hated me and my dad for being βdirtyβ, and tried to make it look like it was about cleaning up after myself by doing things like rushing into my room after I started to clean it, for the sake of her Protestant household metaphorical plays, meant for torturing my psychology at a young age before I can see through it.
I cared about outcasts, and psychological hurdles preventing people from being better artists, and structuring communities to keep bad candidates away from good artists, and all of this involves trauma and bad feelings and bitterness. For someone with my kind of identity it's easy for me to change my behavior. Hence why it is so insulting for me to be expected to do so wrongly. It was 100% intentional to express my fire, bitterness, and resentment to create a system where people in bad situations who do those things can be helped.
As a teenager I believed in the Katie Rices of the world being helped, that's part of why I liked John. After her accusations I began invading her trauma, just as Vivzie did to me in her big budget production. I was savagely abused after this even though Katie Rice was my first crush. I was trying to help her, and I didn't care how it looked. And so when it comes to βsexual conductβ, that's the kind I'm willing to do to express my desire to help, which people were apparently incapable of distinguishing from whatever John did.