I address people's issues with my process of making artwork more personal while highlighting the ways it has become so while people refused to acknowledge it.
This song from 4 days ago mainly involves what can be a statement from myself to Vivzie, involving recent thoughts and emotions including ones I wish I felt better. My passionate striving as an artist directly fuels creativity. โPast being overโ relates to me retroactively nuking the lives Vivzie and others lived in real life to be recontextualized by overturning hater narratives. This also connects to Praying by Kesha featured at the beginning of Hauntlyre Eternal Prelude. In a Homestuck thread, they seemed to meme about VivziePop receiving so much attention from me as โFAT MEATY BITCHโ; Jane Crocker is therapeutic for my mental disturbances caused by societal femininity disregarding my Birdman identity as it developed.
And so came the complaint that artwork was becoming about real people, or rather too much about them in their eyes. This was not clearly communicated because they didn't want me to have that kind of authority, which contributed to God creating the Multiverse as an eschatological event due to shamefully trying to skip past important processes for this world.
I was already becoming personally reflected in things like random children's cartoons from storyboarders listening to my critiques and laughing at my jokes, etc., and that happened for a few years before people started to go insane about it. They wondered โwhy it wasn't good enoughโ and my goal could be simply summarized as creating a world where if I was born into it I would not live out a cosmic nightmare. Protestants rebelled against the importance of human beings in Eternal lives, and so they specifically preemptively destroyed the lives of those like me who would become most important from their spiritual significance rather than money, etc.
Their material priorities looked away from heaven, getting to go to Hollywood and having a nice career and having a pleasant social environment. Completely disconnected from an overall point, as someone like me loves to imagine how Saints and Traditions will be reflected in heaven. Protestants don't. Other people basically become therapeutic, sources of feelings and enjoyment and relieving of pain. I feared -viewed those things as stubs. My vision was so big that I wanted to go beyond the entirety of normal human experience. And really a lot of what I was aiming for could have simply existed in an alternate universe where Protestantism didn't exist, and I didn't want to merely repair things like Doc Scratch in Homestuck. And so Protestantism made it look like I had incredibly lofty goals that disregarded things like connecting about Fullmetal Alchemist with Batty, seeking to ruin the reputation of spiritually important humans to tear down Heavenly hierarchy by sabotaging its development on the Earth.
Being a Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss fan involves being connected to my own soul, hence the massive amount of chaotic social interference I received for years. Unless fans are willing to relate to me in some way they cannot enjoy it, including in the bad ways. It manifests my actual character which mainly networked between the minds of myself and friendly girls as art students freaked out about it. Many soul changes have taken place to get it made including on part of the artists on the shows.
Starting to feel like Batty wants more attention in my contentโฆ and so this all connects back to that complaint about me personally intruding into people's experiences of big established franchises. This was really just social-artistic terrorism. I was a socially awkward teenager. Growing up I didn't get to socialize in real life after I was 8 years old. If someone like me threatens them so much about this subject, it shows they simply don't love others. They want to consume slop. They want to consume Persona, Ren and Stimpy, 101 Dalmatians, and other things as some kind of weird meaningless experience detached from life, a McDonald's hamburger that will never change.
With a few token reflections of the meaning, meanwhile as a kid I was wildly overcome by the idea of a pet and the owner being basically the same in 101 Dalmatians.
This aspect of the film actually has a lot of utility for my Cosmic artwork, as my villains like RA-RE and my other characters are reflections of myself, but they aren't actually myself, and I LARP as them, which is basically like going around with them as pets. When girls like Atomic expressed their intense fondness for Senketsu, Fullmetal Alchemist characters, and Mob, that showed their reception of the dimensions of my personality. It becomes a personal secret, and yes it encroaches on the lives of Spumdonors and others, lives currently spent constantly bitching about Zoomers rather than having anything interesting to say.
Tearing down my Revolution meant my shapeshifting looked โdisgustingโ, ranting about having cosmic control of artistry, which is what the Underrealm is about. The point being to provoke understanding of cosmic consciousness in young art fans, as happened for me from things like Crisis on Infinite Earths, often propelled by the strange feeling that my most natural personality is clearly reflected in them. And so they could never have that same experience because the heavens conveyed to me I had the privilege from discovering Cosmic theology, and so to provoke cosmic consciousness, becoming a โlittle guyโ, I needed to do so myself. Eventually this was attacked in the way I did it on /co/, and other places like Tumblr for a couple years until it becomes hard to remember.
The second drawing reflects my Senketsu connection style with girls - white for prioritizing Divine priorities disputing things in the way of exploring creative spirituality - and some of my common emotions for years that could have been seen on /co/: 1. Feeling wounded 2. Yelling at something that startles my senses 3. Getting psychic-electrocuted by a girl replying to me 4. Expressing anger at her
RARE is โmy dalmatianโ, and people immediately snap to attention because he is a very meaningful persona interface. Ra-re is extremely distinct from 101 Dalmatians, but still has that clear lineage in my development as a person and an artist. People like Spumdonor were not willing to have that patience to wait for this process to complete. People like Batty were - indeed willing to go insane, etc. - and that will have eternal significance.